Soldier Boy, Home for the Weekend
Jesse is a 17 year-old Israeli Jew living in the…
“Soldier Boy, Home for the Weekend” is the debut work of Jesse Aviv Wolfsthal, a seventeen year-old Jewish poet.
Soldier boy, home for the weekend.
He must be so glad to be able to rest, finally.
Finally. Right?
The small hours are quiet, they are small
of course, and there is only the whip-click of his lighter
and the clawing wisps of smoke
from the Marlboro forgotten between his forefinger
and his middle (it’s his third that hour).
Soldier boy, surrounded by brothers, yet there is
no one in his arms. Not injured, no.
Not scarred, not yet – that comes after.
Why then, can’t he sleep?
A boy with a gun in his hand
used to be a boy with a pen in his hand,
a brush in his hand,
his mother’s hand in his hand and now
he is a boy with a gun in his hand.
Fire, reload, fire, reload the chamber
but there is no gun on Earth
that can kill what follows Soldier boy into his room
each night and climbs into his hair while he sleeps,
clinging like cobwebs to the stubble on his scalp.
Hair that Ima used to stroke after a nightmare,
hair that Aba would ruffle and tease and trim with
big red kitchen scissors is gone now – forced to make room for
a helmet and a weight that no one knows how to ease.
If a gun is not what makes Soldier boy a man,
then what is? Is it
girlfriend after girlfriend or
is it the yellow fingernails, a calling card left by
nights and nights and nights of chain-smoking or
is it that which is so horrid that it cannot even be spoken of?
Is it that thing – that thing, that robs a boy of a boyhood,
and a man of an easy night’s rest?
Soldier boy rises, rusty chair legs scrape and clatter against concrete
and the butt of his fourth cigarette lands somewhere in the dark.
Inside, he goes, and tries again to fall asleep.
Visual design by Jill Blum
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Jesse is a 17 year-old Israeli Jew living in the UK. He speaks Hebrew and English but writes predominantly in English. Jesse always had a passion for writing, but as he grew older and began to better understand who he was, his poetry became centered around his experiences as an Israeli and as a Jew in the diaspora, especially since the beginning of the war. He believes that art is key to understanding and empathising with our fellow man, and hopes to convey his and his people’s truth through his writing. Jesse is an editor and junior board member for Green Golem: The Zionist Literary Magazine.